Just Beneath the Surface II sneak peak: “I think soon he’s going to explode…”

Interview with Just Beneath the Surface II character ‘Brynn’

So nice to meet you, Brynn. Would you tell us a bit about your son, Landon?

He was always such a beautiful boy. So soft, so sweet, so gentle, so — perfect. He graduated high school at sixteen, he’s studying engineering, a surprisingly talented running back and more manners than — than — even the old gentlemen from the romantic black and white movies.

All that potential, yet I can see him slowly destroying himself.

Destroying himself? Please elaborate.

Well, he’s like a robot.  He feels nothing, he — he reacts to very few things, he scares me.

I see. Tell us exactly where this is coming from? How do you believe Landon became this person? This robot?

His life is a horror story, and the villain — I’m ashamed to say — may as well be me.

Now, he doesn’t understand that there’s a such thing as too much of a good thing — too much control.

How do you think Landon feels about you?

I know it seems to be a funny question, but after speaking with your oldest son, Petey, I can sense some contention.

I am very curious to know, now how Landon feels about his mother.

I don’t really know. All I know, is that as his mother, I fear for him.  When he looks into my eyes, there’s an emptiness.

The way he looks at me, sometimes, I know he’s got a few screws loose. The robot can’t cover up that look in his eye.

Exactly how has Landon got a “few screws loose?”

It’d take me far too long to explain — or describe — the way he looks at me. It makes me want to run and hide, yet it’s only a look, disguised by a smile, anytime I try to advise him. He doesn’t care that I want the best for him…

***Edit

Truthfully, when I think of the part I play in who he is and where he’s going, if I’m being honest, I can admit I failed him. I’m selfish and life is hell for me, just like it has to be hell for him.

You keep suggesting his past, and the hellish life he has lived.

Most young people turn down a very dangerous path when they experience the type of hurt Landon has experienced.

What, in your opinion, is Landon’s path?

Landon only allows success and perfection. Drug and alcohol were never an option for him.

My son is numb, and he didn’t need alcohol, drugs or any sort of distraction like that to kill the part of him that feels.

And what is his path, Brynn? Where do you see your son ten years from now?

I mean, no one can live like that. My son is not living. He’s a survivor, but he’s telling himself he’s in control. Bad mix. Bad, bad mix. But who am I to help him when I’m the problem? How can I help him when behind the smiles he gives me, he blames me…

And in response to your question, about how he feels about me, Landon is disgusted with me. I am, too — with myself.

Tell us a bit about this “robot,” Brynn. What is the robot, what does it do…

The robot feels nothing and allows him to smile at everything. Fixes everyone else without healing his own wounds. The robot’s going to either kill my son or get him put away for a very long time — I think soon he’s going to explode.

I’m sorry to hear that. I think there’s hope for Landon, though. He’s got good people around him, and with that type of love, maybe he can heal before he harms himself.

I’d like to think that. I hope for that. But I’m a realist, and I’ll leave it at that.

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