A weakened me: a poem about depression
by Donesha Thompson
Just as crippling as dark and blinding night
Can’t move two feet ahead without feeling held back
Like a two edged sword piercing the depths of my heart
I am bleeding in large sums of disappointment
Their words hang over my head as they try to pull me back — back home
I close the gates of interpretation and reception
In fear that I will not learn something from mi cuenta
Great mountains and valleys appear when I least expect them; I am carrying tons of blocks and bricks while they laugh at me
Brightness and colorful truths are far from the more weakened me
- Not only are women more prone to depression than men, but the causes of female depression and even the pattern of symptoms are often different. Understanding the factors that contribute to depression in women—from reproductive hormones to social pressures to the female response to stress—can help you treat it more effectively.
- Focusing on and rehashing negative feelings – Women are more likely to ruminate when they are depressed. This includes crying to relieve emotional tension, trying to figure out why you’re depressed, and talking to your friends about your depression. However, rumination has been found to maintain depression and even make it worse. Men, on the other hand, tend to distract themselves when they are depressed. Unlike rumination, distraction can reduce depression.
- Stress – Some studies show that women are more likely than men to develop depression under lower levels of stress. Furthermore, the female physiological response to stress is different. Women produce more stress hormones than men do, and the female sex hormone progesterone prevents the stress hormone system from turning itself off as it does in men.
- Body image issues – The gender difference in depression begins in adolescence. The emergence of sex differences during puberty likely plays a role. Some researchers point to body dissatisfaction, which increases in girls during the sexual development of puberty. Source
If you suffer from depression, you are not alone. If you suffer silently, you do not have to. If you deny yourself the right to feel, please know, your feelings count. You matter. Somewhere deep down, you sense that something is not right — it’s not — you’re hurting, and it feels as though no one can see or hear you.
Someplace deep down, you know that you matter. Someplace deep down, you sense that you are more than the feeling that pulls at you until you buckle. You are more. You do matter. You can beat this.
It’s hard to see, hear, feel, connect or look yourself in the mirror when depression takes you under. Dig deeper. Dig past those lies. Reach deep down and find your voice. Talk to someone; see your doctor; visualize your pain, visualize releasing your pain. If you could stare your hurt in the face, what would it look like? If you could stare your hurt in the face, and say something, what would you say?
Would you be willing to explore this using art? Would you be willing to lose yourself in writing, painting — any form of art — and try to let it go?
“I believe each emotional energy center in our body has a resonance, that can be awakened by a note of music or a stroke of the artist’s brush, great works of art and music awaken our spirit and facilitate the release of neurotransmitters that are often called Welfare hormones… In that way art and music are healing modalities.
If you can, grab your guitar, sit down at a piano, or pick up a brush and create… Its good for the soul
If not, just close your eyes, hum a tune… where does the power lie… where do you hear and feel the beat. Your heart of course. Feel beauty and truth resonate within the core of your being as it “vibes or jives” connecting us with life itself…” psychologytoday.com
“The pain in my body resonates from my bones straight down to my soul, my breath is deep, my heart aches and I feel as if I can no longer take one more second of this life I am living. I yearn for a memory of a day when joy penetrated the darkness, when light bounced off the walls of my mind and laughter echoed as if over an endless canyon.” Kate Heidelberger
You are not alone
Marie OsmondRead more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/keywords/depression_2.html#15OuDcTZYApcbLOF.99
Psalms 42:11 Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my salvation and my God.