A weakened me: Depression

A weakened me: a poem about depression

by Donesha Thompson

 

 

 

 

Just as crippling as dark and blinding night

 

Can’t move two feet ahead without feeling held back

Like a two edged sword piercing the depths of my heart

I am bleeding in large sums of disappointment

 

 

Their words hang over my head as they try to pull me back — back home

I close the gates of interpretation and reception

 

In fear that I will not learn something from mi cuenta

 

Great mountains and valleys appear when I least expect them; I am carrying tons of blocks and bricks while they laugh at me

 

 

Brightness and colorful truths are far from the more weakened me

 

There’s nothing, repeat, nothing to be ashamed of when you’re going through a depression. If you get help, the chances of your licking it are really good. But, you have to get yourself onto a safe path.
Mike Wallace
  • Not only are women more prone to depression than men, but the causes of female depression and even the pattern of symptoms are often different. Understanding the factors that contribute to depression in women—from reproductive hormones to social pressures to the female response to stress—can help you treat it more effectively.
  • Focusing on and rehashing negative feelings – Women are more likely to ruminate when they are depressed. This includes crying to relieve emotional tension, trying to figure out why you’re depressed, and talking to your friends about your depression. However, rumination has been found to maintain depression and even make it worse. Men, on the other hand, tend to distract themselves when they are depressed. Unlike rumination, distraction can reduce depression.
  • Stress – Some studies show that women are more likely than men to develop depression under lower levels of stress. Furthermore, the female physiological response to stress is different. Women produce more stress hormones than men do, and the female sex hormone progesterone prevents the stress hormone system from turning itself off as it does in men.
  • Body image issues – The gender difference in depression begins in adolescence. The emergence of sex differences during puberty likely plays a role. Some researchers point to body dissatisfaction, which increases in girls during the sexual development of puberty. Source

If you suffer from depression, you are not alone. If you suffer silently, you do not have to. If you deny yourself the right to feel, please know, your feelings count. You matter. Somewhere deep down, you sense that something is not right — it’s not — you’re hurting, and it feels as though no one can see or hear you.

But…

Someplace deep down, you know that you matter. Someplace deep down, you sense that you are more than the feeling that pulls at you until you buckle. You are more. You do matter. You can beat this.

It’s hard to see, hear, feel, connect or look yourself in the mirror when depression takes you under. Dig deeper. Dig past those lies. Reach deep down and find your voice. Talk to someone; see your doctor; visualize your pain, visualize releasing your pain. If you could stare your hurt in the face, what would it  look like? If you could stare your hurt in the face, and say something, what would you say? 

 Would you be willing to explore this using art? Would you be willing to lose yourself in writing, painting — any form of art — and try to let it go?

“I believe each emotional energy center in our body has a resonance, that can be awakened by a note of music or a stroke of the artist’s brush, great works of art and music awaken our spirit and facilitate the release of neurotransmitters that are often called Welfare hormones… In that way art and music are healing modalities. 

If you can, grab your guitar, sit down at a piano, or pick up a brush and create… Its good for the soul
If not, just close your eyes, hum a tune… where does the power lie… where do you hear and feel the beat. Your heart of course. Feel beauty and truth resonate within the core of your being as it “vibes or jives” connecting us with life itself…”  psychologytoday.com

“Treatment Through Creativity Many depressed individuals lift their moods through the creative process by utilizing art therapy, which includes painting, writing and performance art. While art therapy traditionally focuses on using the visual artsto help the individual, music mherapy is another branch that allows the individual to listen to and/or “play” music in order to express and understand his feelings. Anyone can practice art therapy, as it addresses a broad range of problems, from psychological ones to helping with rehabilitation. An art therapist can help you analyze your creations to discover hidden meanings, new aspects of yourself that may be lying dormant, and may help you to overcome hindrances keeping you from living a happier life.”Read more: How Do Art & Music Help People with Depression? | eHow.com http://www.ehow.com/how-does_5683562_do-art-music-people-depression_.html#ixzz1y1iRMgfU

 

“The pain in my body resonates from my bones straight down to my soul, my breath is deep, my heart aches and I feel as if I can no longer take one more second of this life I am living. I yearn for a memory of a day when joy penetrated the darkness, when light bounced off the walls of my mind and laughter echoed as if over an endless canyon.”  Kate Heidelberger

read Kate’s article

You are not alone

A lot of people don’t realize that depression is an illness. I don’t wish it on anyone, but if they would know how it feels, I swear they would think twice before they just shrug it.  – Johnathan Davis

Art saved me; it got me through my depression and self-loathing, back to a place of innocence.
Jeanette Winterson
 
Depression can seem worse than terminal cancer, because most cancer patients feel loved and they have hope and self-esteem. 
 David D. Burns
 
Depression is something that makes you lose your sight.
Michael Schenker

I didn’t know my mother had it. I think a lot of women don’t know their mothers had it; that’s the sad thing about depression. You know, you don’t function anymore. You shut down. You feel like you are in a void.
Marie OsmondRead more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/keywords/depression_2.html#15OuDcTZYApcbLOF.99

Psalms 42:11 Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my salvation and my God.

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3 comments
  1. Donesha said:

    It is amazing how the different sexes handle depression so differently. It is also good to know that it is a normal(hopefully temporary) condition that plagues mankind in these troubling days. It is safe to say that you are not alone when it occurs. This type of condition should bring people together and not pull them apart, and this type of information is beneficial to everyone.

    • I couldn’t agree more. As terrifying and stifling as it can be, it’s good to go against that instinct to close up — like you said, we should come together and recognize this as something that plagues more of us than we realize. You’re so talented. Thank you for commenting and thank you so much for allowing me to share your poetry.

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